My Kittens are teaching each other how to steal people food.

This is how my cat are when there are food. Don't worry, it's only plain water but yes they drank from my mug. The black spotty one is Tama and the fluffy brown-greyish one is Taka. I was there to deliver them when my mother's cat; Nana; give birth. And oh how we panic when Tama's siblings died as the mother held in her babies too long and only look out for me or my mom to help deliver her babies. Take note, Nana is a Persian. Tama and Taka is a mix breed, between persian and local cat. Hence their fur explains.

I took too many funny videos and pictures of them. For example this:

 Tama (4 months old or so) and Taka (just 1 month old) double attack their mom for her milk. 

 Mom: So many Hungry kids, I feed.

 Tama: Happy Christmas 2019!~

 Taka: Who woke me up?! Tis my blanket now!

 The cats just make the living room their slumber party bed.

 They wonder about.

Me: Tama out of the bag, Taka no.

Tama: This bag mine now.

Taka: What is this?

 

 Taka looking cute.

 Tama showing off her belly.

 When they bond.

 Tama becomes one with the cat statues I own.

 The differences in their size when Taka was born. Tama motherly instinct took over at a young age, she babies her little sister.

Me: Dang, how did you sleep like that?

 Tama: I'm going to stalk you, huuuummmmaaaannn~

 Tama: I sleeps everywhere.

 Tama: Mom...

Nana: zzzzZZZZ

 Tama: I must stretch to see the sky.

Tama: To Tired that I raise my arms and sleep.

Nana: To Tired to face up. 

Possible Thought Processing Insomnia.

Hi, as the tittle present I have insomnia this past week. And if I did not reach out to my best friend who is now back in London. I would not have been able to sleep peacefully yesterday.

Yes, this is about me and my overthinking before bed time usually. Thus, cause me to have insomnia. Also I have trouble trying to sleep as there are noises outside. Hence 3am and so on is my sleeping time and I would wake up at noon, causing me to either be grumpy, miss my lunch and breakfast, and also to feel extra sluggish.

I get it that I have been feeling de-motivated as of late, to be seen on the outside however, I appear to be normal. But deep inside I am seriously de-motivated, de-spirited, really feel like just laying in bed and mope around or I just feel really sad sometimes at a point I do not know what is going on.

Take from my experience, some dogs or cat would accompany me, stray or not, I think they are trying to tell me cheer up and I would just sit there petting them and give them some food with a smile on my face. After that I went on with life feeling down.

It could be a phase. To which I do not know what to do but be patient with it until it ends. Its like my outlook in life is as bleak as it could get and that there is very small lights out there in which I can confine to. I also look forward to just get rid of it.

Plus, I am extremely tired with everything but I know suicide is not the answer. I know somewhere out there I can do something to make an impact on the youth and to change people belief that suicide is a way. Many thought so. But to me, suicide is not the way to escape, it is the end of the end of everything in where you will no longer find hope or a second chance to fix things and move on. No matter how hard it is.

I believe everyone needs love, not the romantic kind. I mean the love or compassion and mercy, a means of kindness. The world need more kindness, compassion and mercy. The world deserve peace. But if we cannot find ourselves in the shoe of the other, we will never see or feel how they feel.

Look at me at where I am going. I start to rant about world peace. I was thinking about watching the Witcher or possibly get the game.

With these, I say, God bless you and take care.

Hello February!

Hello February indeed. A new month has come and January has ended, the sound of firecrackers still resound in the air as Chinese New Year still continues on from the month of January. The news on Valentines day resound on social media. And to those who are single out there, I vouch for you, as I am on the same boat as you. For those that hate seeing couples on this day, keep the patience and get yourself a bottle of wine, some pizza, chips, ice cream and a good old movie of your interest to enjoy the night alone. For those who are with your family, well you have people to spend it with. It does not matter who you spend the day with on Valentine's day, as it is a day of St.Valentine's the patron of marriage. 

I'm also talking about leap year. This year is a leap year and those who celebrate their birthday on the 29th 2020, I believe you might be younger than me as you don't celebrate your birthday often. Just kidding. I am here to say Happy Birthday and may your birthday be bless with good things for years to come.

This is all for my journal up here. Hope you enjoy your holidays as much as I do enjoy mine.