Hi, as the tittle present I have insomnia this past week. And if I did not reach out to my best friend who is now back in London. I would not have been able to sleep peacefully yesterday.
Yes, this is about me and my overthinking before bed time usually. Thus, cause me to have insomnia. Also I have trouble trying to sleep as there are noises outside. Hence 3am and so on is my sleeping time and I would wake up at noon, causing me to either be grumpy, miss my lunch and breakfast, and also to feel extra sluggish.
I get it that I have been feeling de-motivated as of late, to be seen on the outside however, I appear to be normal. But deep inside I am seriously de-motivated, de-spirited, really feel like just laying in bed and mope around or I just feel really sad sometimes at a point I do not know what is going on.
Take from my experience, some dogs or cat would accompany me, stray or not, I think they are trying to tell me cheer up and I would just sit there petting them and give them some food with a smile on my face. After that I went on with life feeling down.
It could be a phase. To which I do not know what to do but be patient with it until it ends. Its like my outlook in life is as bleak as it could get and that there is very small lights out there in which I can confine to. I also look forward to just get rid of it.
Plus, I am extremely tired with everything but I know suicide is not the answer. I know somewhere out there I can do something to make an impact on the youth and to change people belief that suicide is a way. Many thought so. But to me, suicide is not the way to escape, it is the end of the end of everything in where you will no longer find hope or a second chance to fix things and move on. No matter how hard it is.
I believe everyone needs love, not the romantic kind. I mean the love or compassion and mercy, a means of kindness. The world need more kindness, compassion and mercy. The world deserve peace. But if we cannot find ourselves in the shoe of the other, we will never see or feel how they feel.
Look at me at where I am going. I start to rant about world peace. I was thinking about watching the Witcher or possibly get the game.
With these, I say, God bless you and take care.