Year 2019 in summary.

The year 2020, roll in quickly as I spend last year's Christmas busied with Church programs to get myself away from my mind and also the fact that I was not feeling any festivities that year. I put on an air of joy around me when deep inside the feeling I held was one of sadness and melancholy as I am reminded that this year was another year of failure at my career. However I did get to support my little brother at his graduation, spend money to visit Malacca and also to attend Westlife Twenty Tour Concert in August, right after my birthday. 

I remind myself that not all is bad last year as I experience a few stumbling stones on my way towards the middle of 2019. I got to learn a lot in the office setting but overall, it was not really a place I want to be and nor do I want to stay. I learn more about myself as I proceed down 2019 with the Go Bald Campaign. Yes, I was bald for the year 2019. It surprise everyone around me when they see me bald. I keep on a smile.

As for my career, I am stuck with the trauma of my previous boss saying that my facial expression when ask to do a job disturbs him as I usually have a harden face as I try to understand what my task is. Other than that, it is one of the reason I got myself to resign before I am fired. I do not find myself being productive to a manager that is not always around to monitor the office nor a person that I can ask if I have question. I was often alone in the office. It's dangerous I notice, there is also no proper security. 

Fast forward to after I left, I travel to Malacca and got myself refreshed with new experience and also an open experience to history. My little brother graduate at the end of June, which got me to travel to Malacca. I love the experience. Maybe I have wanderlust. It was a trip to which I walk around the city with my siblings, I even listen to 'Bekikis Bulu Betis' in bahasa malaysia at a mall cafeteria and ended up singing the Iban version to my siblings with a smile. 

Then after I got to the concert in August, I tick off my mental bucket list. I have a bucket list, mentally on what I want to do. What is left on my bucket list is to:

1. Bungee Jumping
2. Skydiving
3. Go to a dessert
4. Visit Sabah, Japan, Korea, Europe, and so on.
5. Go to a theme park.
6. Go for proper Comic Con, cosplaying as something.

This is the summary of 2019.

Love,

Grace Paul